Reflection

November 17th, Tuesday
9:40 am

1. The weekend past,
2. Moronic Monday,
3. Today

Ahh.. I reached home a little distraught after hearing the news that I'd have to be ready with a presentation of my training here at Bangalroe by Tuesday EOD. What a beautiful nightmare. :(
Anyway, the weekend was 8 hours away and that lifted my spirits. Also my dear room mate suggests we play counter strike at home, "Aye man, got a lotta frustration to vent out in lead, so I'm game" and what a game it was, till the last five rounds we were either tied or one up. Though I lost I was cool, my mind clear and sleep came easy.

3:15 am

My phone rings...
"Wha???? I just slept is it 6 already..."
My hand pulls the cell close and I see a friend's name, %$#@ is this the time to call, I mute it and cut it off, 10 min later the $#@#$% phone rings again. Same person. Finally I decided to answer the call,
Me: "Helloo!!"
Friend: ".... "
Me: "(pause) Hello!"
Friend: ""
Me: (man you're so dead)

I cut the call, shove it under the pillow and off to sleep, results
I wake up late for my appointment, I get further delayed coz system restore is slow.

11:20 am

Today went well, I'm in high spirits, I'm practically "getting-jiggy-with-it" while walking the streets of Shantinagar. Mum calls and we have a delightful long chat, I speak to dad too, another good conversation and I'm happier than ever. Then I take a long walk, sit in the bus and we're off...

Status Check : Happy
Location Check : Near Kormangala
Mood : Cheerful

45 min later...

Status Check : Amused/surprised
Location check : somewhere
Mood : Still Cheerful

20 min later...

Status check : Flabbergasted
Location Check : Sarjapur (a small village-becoming-a-town on the outskirts of Bangalore)
Where should I have been : HSR Layout 50 min back
Mood : Still cheerful :)

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One half hour later,
I'm in my house starving, so I begin to gorge on 1 plate palak paneer, half a chicken in chicken masala, 4 roomali rotis, one HUGE chicken tikka roll and some crackers. Did I finish it.. Not completely, I managed to leave one piece, some gravy and two rotis. Oh well, dinner is accounted for, not too mention the gaping hole in my pocket. But what the fudge, once in a while, I forgive myself. *chuckle*

The evening was spent in sleep, a bath and attending service at St. Anthony's Church.

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Sunday

Mood : Not great
Location : The wrong side of the sleeping mat

So the morning was quite deja vu without the good cheer, the afternoon was EXCELLENT food.
One by two, hot and sour soup (they'd run out of big bowls), one plate fried chicken momos (5 pcs)
and one big serving of awesome spicy veg koithio (flat noodles) in red sauce. Ahhh... what bliss.
The evening was spent away in quiet reflection on relationships, scrapping my new Spanish friend Lourdes and messaging another recent good friend.

Lesson learnt : Sometimes, you tend to be good to people or too bad to people without fully understanding why you do so. Honestly a good relationship shouldn't need a reason to make or continue. It shouldn't need explanations or desires or expectations. I dislike reciprocating the way certain people are to me just because I wasn't that way to them, but sometimes perhaps it's necessary to maintain the relationship. One cannot believe in something and then expect everyone around to follow the same belief. Sometimes you need to remember that the heart doesn't think it just beats and pumps blood to the rest of your sole body not others. Sometimes it is imperative to have no feelings, to be objective...


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Monday dawns near